講個故事給你聽。 我是扉頁 我爸叫周明德。有些父愛沒有說出口，卻會一個月三千、五千，慢慢存成一個孩子一生都用不完的底氣。。英文學習 The phrase "go nuclear" is a popular idiom that means to use your most extreme, powerful, or destructive option to solve a problem. revile, reviled nuclear power. Revered by Tibetans, reviled by China. revere, the deceased, kin, reverence, irreverent, ravening, compulsive, eyewitness, wolf in sheep's clothing

 ......電梯宅；銀行行員卻說：妳還有一個19年前開的帳戶】

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我35歲那年，終於存夠了替爸爸換房子的頭期款。

房子不大，兩房一廳，也不是新屋。

我只在意一件事。

有電梯。

兩個月前我回彰化，走到老公寓三樓時，看見爸爸扶著樓梯喘氣。

那個年輕時扛水泥、搬模板，一天爬幾十趟樓梯都不喊累的男人，今年67歲了。

膝蓋退化，腰也不好。

我叫他，他立刻站直，只說：

「老了啦，走慢一點而已。」

那天回新竹後，我就開始看房。

我沒告訴他。

因為我太了解我爸，只要知道我要替他買房，第一句一定是「現在這間又不是不能住」。

沒想到準備付房款那天，銀行行員查完資料，忽然問我：

「林小姐，妳名下另外這個帳戶，也要一起整理嗎？」

我愣住。

那是一個19年前開立的綜合存款帳戶。

開戶時，我16歲。

裡面還有幾筆自動續存多年的定期儲蓄存款。

加起來，八十多萬元。

我盯著螢幕看了很久。

因為我突然知道，那是誰存的。

我爸叫周明德。

但他不是我的親生父親。

我10歲那年，生父因病過世。

一年後媽媽再婚，嫁給做工地的周明德。

那時我非常排斥他。

他替我夾菜，我把碗移開；下雨騎車去學校接我，我寧願自己撐傘走回家。

婚後不久，他和媽媽辦了收養。

法律上，他正式成為我的父親。

可我還是叫他周叔叔。

親戚曾當著他的面問，孩子怎麼還不改口。

他只笑笑：

「慢慢來，叫什麼不重要。」

我13歲那年，媽媽癌症過世。

喪事辦完後，親戚開始討論我以後要住哪裡。

有人說跟外婆，也有人勸周明德：

「孩子又不是親生的，你還年輕，照顧到這裡已經夠了。」

我躲在房門後，聽見他說：

「她戶口上就是我女兒。」

「她媽媽不在了，我再不要她，她要去哪裡？」

那天晚上，我吃飯時第一次叫他爸。

沒有什麼感人的場面。

我只是拿不到醬油，小聲說了一句：

「爸，醬油給我一下。」

他的手停了一秒，把醬油推過來。

「少沾一點，太鹹。」

從那以後，一個只會做工的男人，開始自己養一個青春期女孩。

他不懂女孩在想什麼，也不太會安慰人。

會問的永遠是：

有沒有吃飽？

錢夠不夠？

下雨有沒有帶傘？

我升高中時，有一次註冊費、書籍費和制服費加起來一萬多元。

期限前一天，錢照樣放在餐桌上。

很多年後我才從舅舅口中知道，那時爸爸剛換工地，薪水還沒結清。

那筆錢，是他把媽媽過世後一直留著的結婚金戒指賣掉換來的。

我問他為什麼不告訴我。

他只說：

「說了妳就會說不要念。」

「小孩子該念書就念書，大人的事不用妳擔心。」

也是我16歲那年，他帶我到銀行開了帳戶。

我一直以為，那只是拿來存獎學金和紅包的。

直到19年後才知道，他自己每個月也在往裡面放錢。

最少3,000元。

工地收入好一點，就5,000元。

有年終、工程獎金，或多做幾天零工，再放一筆。

存到一定金額，就轉成定存。

到期後再續存。

而他的生活一直省得誇張。

工作服磨破了才換。

機車騎十幾年，只要還能發動就不肯換。

中午便當多加一顆滷蛋，他都嫌貴。

可我考上外縣市的國立大學後，他一個人扛著電風扇、棉被和生活用品爬上宿舍四樓。

我想多打工減輕負擔，他還罵我：

「叫妳去讀書，不是叫妳去賺那幾千塊。」

後來我念研究所，再念博士。

博士班已經有研究助理薪資和獎學金，他打電話來，最後仍然會問：

「錢夠不夠？」

我快30歲博士畢業，進入研究機構工作。

第一次領完整薪水，我轉3萬元給他。

不到十分鐘，錢又被退回來。

他說：

「妳自己留著，以後買房、結婚、想出國，都要錢。」

我一直以為，爸爸只是習慣節省。

直到35歲那天，我才知道那些他捨不得花掉的錢，根本沒有消失。

全都一筆一筆，存進我的名字裡。

我從銀行出來，直接搭車回彰化。

到家時，他正在廚房煎魚。

我把銀行資料放在餐桌上。

「爸，我今天去銀行了。」

他的鍋鏟停了一下。

我問：

「那個帳戶，是你存的嗎？」

他只看一眼。

「喔，那個喔。」

彷彿不是八十多萬元，只是我找到一包他忘在冰箱裡的菜。

我問他為什麼要存這麼久。

他沉默一會兒才說，當年做工地危險，他怕哪天自己摔下來，或者身體做不動，我會沒有依靠。

他不知道我以後會念到哪裡。

只知道念大學要錢，研究所要錢，出國要錢。

以後如果工作做得不開心，想辭職，手上有一筆錢，也不用看人臉色。

我問：

「那你為什麼從來不告訴我？」

他說：

「告訴妳，妳一定叫我不要存。」

接著又補了一句：

「我自己的女兒，我替她留一點退路，有什麼好講的？」

我眼淚一下就掉了。

忍不住問：

「媽都不在這麼多年了，你當初其實可以不用管我。」

他皺眉看著我。

「妳現在還在講什麼有沒有血緣？」

「我收養妳那天，妳就是我女兒了。」

「當爸哪有做到一半說不要做的。」

最後，那八十多萬元我一毛都沒有動。

我還是用自己的存款，替他買下那間有電梯的小房子。

交屋那天，我把鑰匙交給他。

他果然嫌我浪費錢。

我只說：

「你替我存了19年。」

「這間換我存給你。」

搬家時，我在他的舊衣櫃裡找到一個鐵盒。

裡面沒有錢。

只有我國中的獎狀、大學錄取通知、研究所學生證影本、博士畢業照，還有幾張小時候寫給他的父親節卡片。

最舊的一張，是媽媽過世後不久寫的。

紙已經泛黃。

上面只有一句：

「爸爸，父親節快樂。」

他留了二十多年。

那天我才真正明白。

銀行裡的八十多萬元，只是爸爸愛我的方式裡，剛好能被算出來的部分。

剩下那些算不出來的，是早餐、學費、雨衣，是一次次等在校門口的機車，也是所有人都覺得這個家可以散了時，只有他沒有走。

他從沒說過「我把妳當親生女兒」。

因為在他心裡，根本沒有什麼「當作」。

從他成為我父親的那一天起，

我就只是他的女兒。

這一頁，我替曉晴留下那個19年前開立的帳戶，也替周明德留下那只裝滿獎狀與卡片的舊鐵盒。

有些父愛沒有說出口，卻會一個月三千、五千，慢慢存成一個孩子一生都用不完的底氣。

講個故事給你聽。

我是扉頁。

• The phrase "go nuclear" is a popular idiom that means to use your most extreme, powerful, or destructive option to solve a problem. revile, reviled nuclear power. Revered by Tibetans, reviled by China. revere,  the deceased, kin, reverence, irreverent, ravening, compulsive, eyewitness, wolf in sheep's clothing
  
  

  The phrase "go nuclear" is a popular idiom that means to use your most extreme, powerful, or destructive option to solve a problem. It comes from the ultimate destructive power of nuclear weapons, but people use it in everyday life, politics, and work to describe a total escalation. [1, 2, 3]

  Depending on the context, "going nuclear over" a specific situation can mean a few different things:

  Common Meanings

  In Politics: Changing deep rules or breaking tradition to win a fight. For example, a political party might "go nuclear" to bypass a vote block or fire a massive number of staff. [1, 2]
  In Personal Life: Having an intense, angry outburst or losing your temper completely over a minor annoyance. [1, 2]
  In Business or Legal Disputes: Dropping all friendly negotiations and choosing aggressive actions, like filing major lawsuits, public shaming, or firing everyone involved. [1, 2]

  Why People Do It

  To end a long and frustrating standstill.
  To show total power and force the other side to back down.
  As a last resort when normal rules stop working.

  
  
  
  
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  David B. Torch for The New York Times
  
  
  Skis, Songs and Shots at a Supremely Norwegian Sports Festival
  
  
  
  
  Holmenkollen celebrates cross-country skiing and other winter sports in a nation that reveres them.
  
  俄羅斯的Z DAY，誰讓俄國將來無光......
  May 9 Is a Revered Day in Russia. For Many, Putin Has Hijacked It.
  Under President Vladimir Putin, Victory Day, marking the defeat of Nazi Germany, has come to celebrate modern Russian military might. (Google翻譯： 5 月 9 日在俄羅斯是一個受人尊敬的日子。 對於許多人來說，普京已經劫持了它。
  在弗拉基米爾·普京總統的領導下，標誌著擊敗納粹德國的勝利日已經到來，以慶祝現代俄羅斯的軍事實力。)
  
  
  
  
  ‎Lona Honiahaka‎ 發文到 Early Photography and Film
  
  ‎Melissa Thornhill Young‎ 發文到 America In the 1890s
  
  
  
  
  
  The heartbreaking practice of "Post-mortem photography" was very common in the nineteenth century when "death occurred in the home and was quite an ordinary part of life."As photography was a new medium, it is plausible that "many daguerreotype post-mortem portraits, especially those of infants and young children, were probably the only photographs ever made of the sitters. The long exposure time made deceased subjects easy to photograph. I can't imagine the sadness of these parents. 😪
  
  New Jersey's Next Governor: A Rich Donor With Progressive Roots
  
  By NICK CORASANITI
  Before Philip D. Murphy was a governor, he was a Goldman Sachs executive. And before that, he was raised in a home that revered the Kennedys.
  
  
  "To name Voltaire is to characterise the entire eighteenth century", according to Victor Hugo. Born on this day in 1694, Voltaire was a writer, philosophe, and vocal critic of the abuses of the French Ancien Régime
  
  
  
  
  
  Nuclear power in the Nordic countries: Recalled to half-life

  A surprising revival in previously reviled nuclear power
  

Trump has been kept away from a British population which largely reviles the US president

More than 360 years later, as advance obituaries are being prepared for the very forms of printed journalism born during Peacham’s era, Lady Opinion is on display, along with far more reverential examples of news and opinion, at the Folger Shakespeare Library on Capitol Hill in the exhibition “Breaking News: Renaissance Journalism and the Birth of the Newspaper.”

China and Tibet

A lama in sheep's clothing?

May 8th 2008 | DHARAMSALA
From The Economist print edition

Revered by Tibetans, reviled by China

NOT long after calling him a “devil” with a human face and the heart of a beast, Chinese officials are talking again to representatives of the Dalai Lama. But in the Indian hill town of Dharamsala, the seat of Tibet's government-in-exile, few believe China's own heart has changed. “The basis of their attitude towards Tibet is...distrust and fear,” the Dalai Lama told The Economist a day after a meeting on May 4th in the southern Chinese city of Shenzhen between two of his envoys and two senior Communist Party officials. It was the first contact between the two sides since unrest broke out in Tibet and other ethnic Tibetan regions of China in March.

Idioms:

wolf in sheep's clothing

An enemy disguised as a friend, as in Dan was a wolf in sheep's clothing, pretending to help but all the while spying for our competitors.
This term comes from the ancient fable about a wolf that dresses up in the skin of a sheep and sneaks up on a flock.

This fable has given rise to a rich history of allusions as in the Sermon on the Mount when Jesus speaks of false prophets in sheep's clothing, "but inwardly they are ravening wolves" (Matthew 7:15).
¹⁵你們要提防假先知！他們來到你們跟前，外披羊毛，內裡卻是兇殘的豺狼。
¹⁵Beware of false prophets, who come to you in the clothing of sheep, but inwardly they are ravening wolves


compulsive, eyewitness

Pepys had two great accomplishments. He was the creator, in effect, of the modern British Navy, and to this day naval historians so revere him that they regard the other Pepys, the literary one, as an embarrassment and a distraction.

He was also a compulsive diarist. Starting on New Year's Day in 1660 (when he was 26), he faithfully wrote down, in a shorthand code, a day-by-day account of everything he saw, felt or heard for the next nine years. The completed diary fills six 282-page notebooks; it's the longest, most personal account we have of life in the 17th century, and also an invaluable eyewitness account of some of the most seismic events in English history: the Restoration (Pepys was in the boat that went to fetch Charles II from the Netherlands), the plague of 1665, the Great Fire the following year and the Dutch raids the year after that.

Bracketing the diary are the years of the Civil War and the Protectorate (Pepys as a schoolboy watched the king's execution) and, later, the Glorious Revolution of 1688, during which Pepys, who remained a staunch Jacobite, was briefly imprisoned on suspicion of treason. Few literary figures have lived through more interesting, or more treacherous, times.




Schweitzer is remembered for his belief in the "reverence of life."
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"Do something wonderful; people may imitate it." — Albert Schweitzer

Mass Burials Obscure Fate of China’s Missing

By EDWARD WONG 7:15 PM ET

China’s rush to dispose of bodies of earthquake victims has prevented family members from identifying their kin and has upset a traditional Chinese reverence for the deceased

kin 
plural noun OLD-FASHIONED
family and relatives
adverb FORMAL

He laid the wreath reverently in front of the memorial.

reverential
adjective FORMAL
He opened the ancient book with reverential care.

irreverent
adjective
lacking the expected respect for official, important or holy things:
an irreverent comment/approach/attitude
irreverent thoughts

rev・er・ence

━━ n. 尊敬（の念） ((for)) (We hold him in ～.); 〔古〕 敬礼; （R-） 尊師 (his [your] R-).
 do [pay] reverence to　…に敬意を表する.
━━ vt. 尊ぶ, 崇敬する.

revere¹

(rĭ-vîr') 
To regard with awe, deference, and devotion.

[French révérer, from Old French reverer, from Latin reverērī : re-, re- + verērī, to respect.]

revere
verb [T] FORMAL
to greatly respect and admire someone or something:
Nelson Mandela is revered for his brave fight against apartheid.

reverence
noun [U] FORMAL
She has/shows/feels great reverence for her professors.

reverent
adjective FORMAL
A reverent silence fell over the crowd.
NOTE: The opposite is irreverent.

reverently
adverb FORMAL
He laid the wreath reverently in front of the memorial.

reverential 
adjective FORMAL
He opened the ancient book with reverential care.

revile
verb [T] FORMAL
to criticize someone strongly, or say unpleasant things to or about someone:
The judge was reviled in the newspapers for his opinions on rape.





deceased 
adjective FORMAL
1 dead:
the recently deceased Member of Parliament

2 the deceased a person who has recently died or people who have recently died:
The deceased shot her mother before killing herself.
Five of the deceased were employed by the club.

compulsion (DESIRE)
noun [C]
a very strong or uncontrollable desire (to do something repeatedly):
For many people, dieting is a compulsion.
[+ to infinitive] I seem to have a constant compulsion to eat.

compulsive
adjective
1 doing something a lot and unable to stop doing it:
a compulsive liar/thief/eater
compulsive gambling
a compulsive eating disorder

2 describes a film, play, sports event, book, etc. that is so interesting or exciting that you do not want to stop watching or reading it:
I always find programmes about hospitals compulsive viewing.
Her latest book is compulsive reading/a compulsive read.

compulsively 
adverb
too much and in a way that shows you are unable to stop:
She exercises/cleans/works compulsively.eyewitness noun [C]
a person who saw something happen, for example a crime or an accident:
According to an eyewitness account, the thieves abandoned their vehicle near the scene of the robbery and then ran off.


treachery
 noun [U] FORMAL
Corley said she was standing down as leader because of the treachery of her own colleagues.

 Jac・o・bite

━━ n., a. 【英史】ジャコバイト（派の） ((名誉革命で退位した James II（の子孫）を復位させようとした)).

pro・tec・tor

 

━━ n. 保護［擁護，防御］者; 保護物［装置］; 【英史】摂政.
pro・tec・tor・al　a.
pro・tec・tor・ate　 n. 保護国［領］; 保護関係; 【英史】摂政（期間）; （the P-） 護国卿(きょう)時代 （1653-59）.
pro・tec・tor・ship　n. 摂政の任期.
pro・tec・tress　n. （女性である）保護者.

ravening
adjective
1 LITERARY (especially of wild animals) fiercely hunting for food:
ravening wolves

2 describes a group of people who try to get what they want in a forceful way:
She said that she was tired of being pursued by ravening journalists.